Wednesday, April 14, 2010

school, life, and it all makes me wonder....

today in class we watched a video about a boy who illegally crossed the border with his family and attended school in the united states.

The video starts off in the kitchen. The boys family is very excited because the boy is going to have his first exam in the United States. The father tells the mother, "dale otro huevo" Meaning, give him another egg, he is going to need it for his studies....

The next day in school, the boy tries a math problem, but is unable to share his answer with the class because he doesnt speak nor understand English.... The entire class makes fun of him...
The boy asks the teacher if she can give the upcoming math test in spanish, but the teacher tells him "dont worry about it"....
The boy then tells the teacher, that this exam is really important for him and that he has the right to worry....
The English Speaking teacher reflects on what the boy tells him and tries to talk to the school principal about the little boy and his desire to take the test in Spanish...

The principal tells the teacher "dont worry, we dont have to worry about that type of students"
The teacher tries to find a spanish test, but fails....

The next day the boy attempts taking the test, but he fails....
HE FAILS BECAUSE THE EDUCATIONAL SYSTEM DOESNT SUPPORT HIS NATIVE LANGUAGE...

this video reminded of me when I was in elementary.....
it then made me realize how much I have accomplish....

yesterday I was really sad because my family is not going to come to graduation (AGAIN) and I wont have a party like everybody else I know.... but reality is... as long as my mom makes it... i will be fine...

im sad because i wont have a celebration :: the one I always wanted :: but....
i need to stop being this way.... yet, i have accomplished so much... that i wish someone would organize something for me... like other people's parents are, or have done for their children....

makes me wonder :: is a celebration required for me to realize how much I have accomplished...
makes me wonder :: why do i want that celebration...
makes me wonder :: im a bad son for feeling this way... or do i owe myself this celebration for the hard work, yet no one from my family, except for my mom will be here....

it makes me wonder.....

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

graduacion...

otro anio escolar esta apunto d terminar y mi graduacion esta a tan solo un par de dias de oi...
deberia estar emocionado como cualquier otro estudiante... pero no lo estoy...
este anio me la volvere a pasar solo...
bueno, mi mama estara aki..
pero otra vez no tendre la graducion que quisiera tener...
estar con mi familia....
tener una fiesta..
los amigos...
etc...

otra vez... una vez mas... d nuevo.. estaremos tan solo io y mi mama...
d ke sirve graduarse si no voy a tener lo ke kiero al final.....

en fn....
no es ke haga menos a mi mama...
pero odio haber tenido que estudiar en los estados unidos..
x ke nunca nadie viene a mis graduaciones....

es la tercera en mi vida
y otra vez... estare io solo...

en fin....

Thursday, April 01, 2010

oi me encuentro

chetes dice "tal vez no sabes lo que eres para mi..."

yo digo "tal vez no se lo que yo soy para ti, pues no se lo que yo soy para mi"

dia a dia me doy cuenta que ya no soy el mismo...
fotos y recuerdos todos mi dicen : regresa....

pero como regresar al pasado, como regresar a lo que un dia fui
como poder dejar todo atras sin sentirse fuera de lo normal...
como regresar al pasado sin perder lo que se eh logrado, sin dejar atras los amigos, sin dejar atras las amistades perdidas que hicieron d mi la persona que hoy vez...

seria capaz de cambiar todo x un segundo en mi antiguo cuerpo, en mi antigo cerebro, en mi antiguo ser!?

la respuesta: si!
sin importar el costo lo haria, lo haria sin temerle al resultado

x ke?
xtranio mi burbuja, xtranio no tener que preocuparme x mi
xtranio mi antiguo cuarto :: lleno de iluciones, amistades locas, y sobre todo compuesto de ese calor llamado hogar...

oi me encuentro a un par de kilometros de mi antiguo ser...
oi me encuentro a un par de anios de mi antiguo ser...
oi me encuentro a un par de kilos de mas de mi antiguo ser...
oi me encuentro a un par de zapatos rotos de mis antiguos pies....
oi me encuentro a un par de nueronas de mi antiguo cerebro...
oi me encuentro a un par de camisetas de mi antiguo cuerpo...

oi yo solo se ke me encuentro lejos de lo que algun dia fui...
oi yo solo se ke quisiera regresar el tiempo... y ser lo que algun dia fui...